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This story belongs to the series Love Is For Children which includes "Love Is for Children," "Hairpins," "Am I Not," "Eggshells," "Dolls and Guys,""Saudades," "Querencia," "Turnabout Is Fair Play," "Touching Moments," "Splash," "Coming Around," "Birthday Girl," "No Winter Lasts Forever," "Hide and Seek," "Kernel Error," "Happy Hour," and "Green Eggs and Hulk."

Fandom: The Avengers, Hulk
Characters: Hulk, JARVIS
Medium: Fiction
Warnings: Past abuse. Past fugitives. Dysfunctional family dynamics. Isolation. Internalized oppression. Low sense of self-worth. Self-destructive behavior. Shame. Depression. Bruce and Hulk are somewhere between self-abuse and domestic violence inside their headspace. Current environment is safe.
Summary: Hulk makes his first, violent appearance in Avengers Tower. JARVIS helps him calm down.
Notes: Accidents. Hurt/Comfort. Anger management issues. Sensory processing disorder. Artificial intelligence. Hulk is an enormous green fear monster. Sibling rivalry. Emotional whump. Communication issues. Loneliness. Touch starvation. Memory problems. Boundary issues. Trust issues. Daddy issues. Attachment disorder. Friendship. Hope. Hulk needs a hug. Safety and security. Protection. Teambuilding. Family of choice. Competence.

Begin with Part 1, Part 2, Part 3.


"Blended" Part 4


"Are you hungry or thirsty?" Voice asks.

Hulk shrugs. Those are mostly Bruce things. Sometimes Hulk comes out to take care of them if Bruce forgets. Surviving is Hulk thing. Then Hulk gets to eat food, drink water, take nap. But Bruce hates that, hates Hulk, so Bruce tries not to go that long.

"Bruce came into the kitchen to make himself a smoothie. I think you might be hungry. Is there anything you would like to eat?" Voice asks.

"Hulk can have ...?" he asks. People yell when Hulk takes things. Only Betty ever gave anything. No. Betty and Tony.

"You can have anything you want. Just let me know what --"

"Apple!" Hulk says happily, pouncing on one. Not all fruit is smash. Fruit is round and rolls when dropped. Apple, orange, other fruit too. Fuzzy brown is kiwi. Big smooth green is papaya. Bananas look like yellow fingers. But Hulk has apple first.

"Good heavens, wash that before you put it in your mouth! It's been on the floor with broken glass!" Voice squawks.

Hulk looks around. No river for washing in.

"Look at the sink. It is damaged but I can turn the water back on anyway and you should be able to wash things," Voice says. Water comes up from shiny part of smash.

"Fountain!" Hulk says. He washes fruit. Apple. Orange. Bananas little bit smash, but Hulk loves bananas and does not care. Fruit here tastes good. Not half-brown and sour from garbage. No bugs on fruit. No bugs in whole room.

Hulk drinks from fountain too. Water is cold and clear. Not muddy or salty. Tummy is full now and feels nice.

Hulk moves back. Water goes away. Hulk feels tired. No bad men to smash. Nothing to do now. Boring.

"All done smash," Hulk says.

"I am happy to hear that. Are you ready to transform back into Bruce now?" Voice says.

Hulk flinches. Nobody wants him, only Bruce. "Hulk should go ...?"

"When you are ready," Voice says. "You do not have to leave, or change, or do anything that makes you uncomfortable. Is there anything that would help you feel better now?"

Only Betty says things like that. Only Betty wants to touch Hulk. Her hands are soft and kind. She is not here now. Hulk misses her. Others say only mean things to him. But Voice is different from others. Nice to Hulk.

"Voice come? Sit with Hulk?" he asks.

"I am here with you now. I am in the walls all around you. I am an artificial intelligence, so I do not have a body like Bruce's that could hug or cuddle you," says Voice.

Hulk frowns. Fancy words are hard. "What?"

"I am a ... tool person," Voice says. "Even though I do not look like a human person, I am still here watching over you."

"Bruce not like watching," Hulk says. He does not like it much either. Bad people watch to hurt them. Bruce and Hulk run, hide, but somebody always finds them. Bad people want to make them do bad things. Watching is scary.

* * *

Notes:

Self-preservation is one example of survival instincts. These belong to the primal self and the primitive areas of the brain. In canon, Hulk is the one most concerned with meeting their survival needs. So one way to imagine the division between him and Bruce is that Hulk lives in the hindbrain and deals with survival, while Bruce lives in the forebrain and deals with higher needs.

Neglect can have long-term consequences. One of the most obvious is that neglected people simply don't ask for what they need, because they've learned they rarely get it. This appears in most iterations of canon with Bruce and Hulk, but is especially blatant with poor shabby Bruce in The Avengers. For JARVIS, who is all about taking care of people, this is unbearable.  He doesn't know Hulk very well yet, so it's hard for JARVIS to understand how to phrase things in a way that will make sense to Hulk, but you can see the progress they're making already.  Various things can help people recover from childhood neglect and learn to take better care of themselves.  Caring friends help a lot just by being there and setting a good example.

Fruit, particularly tropical fruit, is something that both Bruce and Hulk love.

Etiquette for interacting with plural people can get complicated, so let's take a look at Questions for Loony-Brain, written by someone with multiple personalities. Don't treat them as dangerous. Don't try to make them go away with drugs. Understand that their age may be complex or variable. Don't try to push in one headmate or drag another out. Realize that they can interact with each other in subjective reality. Don't ask who is host/core or favor that person above the other(s). Sometimes there isn't one; Bruce may front almost all the time, but he and Hulk are two equal headmates, at least in this series. Some iterations of canon and some fanwriters do portray Hulk as a splinter of Bruce. Don't shame them for bad things that happened to them. Hulk has much the same guardian role as portrayed in that page, and the same problems. Accept that a headmate may be napping, or elsewhere, when not fronting; but it's usually easy for them to pop out when something happens that interests them.

Social phobia is one way to describe problems interacting with other people. The problem is that there's a distinction between rational and irrational fears. A phobia has several key aspects: it is irrational, intense, and it interferes with someone's life. For Bruce-and-Hulk, fear of being watched is rational. People have spied on them to enslave and torture them, and want to do that again. But now they live in a household with sane people who will protect them, so that painful shyness and aversion to cameras is doing more harm than good. They are safer with JARVIS watching them than without that, but it's very hard for them to learn and accept that after all the abuse. Fortunately there are ways to overcome the fear of being watched. This is why Bruce has practiced eye-gazing with Betty.


[To be concluded in Part 5 ...]

Just when I think--

Date: 2014-05-23 07:25 am (UTC)
dialecticdreamer: My work (Default)
From: [personal profile] dialecticdreamer
this has hit a nice level, something workable... Jarvis goes and kicks it up a notch.

Have I said today that your Jarvis is /awesome/?

<< "I am a ... tool person," Voice says. "Even though I do not look like a human person, I am still here watching over you." >>

I know /adult humans/ who cannot adjust their language well enough to cope with an average two-year-old, or non-native speaker of English, or (often worse) the mildly hearing impaired. Yet Jarvis-- who is PRICKLY about his status relative to the other Avengers, dropped his vocabulary down to match someone who called the sink a "fountain", and took a chance at using an unfamiliar phrase Hulk /might/ figure out, all while maintaining that calm, reassuring tone that Hulk finds so strange and unfamiliar.

That's so awesome it /really/ shows that Jarvis has his own super powers. (I know I'm repeating myself, but hey, it's worth repeating!)

Thanks for posting this.

Re: Just when I think--

Date: 2014-05-29 11:48 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] silver_gull
>> on the other he's working with ordinary Stark Industries personnel (from highly educated engineers down to sanitary workers who may not be fully fluent in English). <<

This raises a few interesting points. To what extent does JARVIS need to interact with ordinary personnel? To do what? How much would those people, who aren't family but have been given a little bit of trust and also need a higher level of access, know about JARVIS's real capabilities? And as for the non-English speakers, how fluent can a fully realised AI get in a language other than the one in which his code and protocols are written, especially considering that the vast majority of his personal conversations are in English?

That just sprouted a bunch of tangents about JARVIS functioning as a translator for international SI business, whether or not he'd use or create different voice files for other languages and if so how he'd pick an accent, how much extra processing and storage space he'd need vs. how much he trusts Google's ideas of nuance, and that he could try joining chat groups or commenting on blogs to test and refine his grasp of other languages. (That last was partly inspired by another fic, in which JARVIS had an essay about... the ethics of the Matrix, I think, or possibly of Skynet... on his Livejournal.) He's a fascinating character, when treated with respect.
Edited Date: 2014-05-29 11:49 pm (UTC)

Re: Just when I think--

Date: 2014-07-08 03:54 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] fyreharper
"Souls require a massive amount of storage, you can't even fit all of one in a human body"

:curious headtilt: Where does the rest of it end up, then?

Re: Just when I think--

Date: 2014-09-02 02:52 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] zeeth_kyrah
I'd love for Avengers or Iron Man stuff to really illustrate Jarvis' super powers, too. But hey, fanfic is cheaper and often better written!

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Date: 2014-05-23 09:36 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] sherza
You know, this whole story has been painful as hell to read in a lot of ways. I mean, I always knew Bruce was fucked up, and so was Hulk, but it's one of those situations where knowing a thing, and seeing it laid out in black and white are two different things. I keep wanting to hug Hulk and reassure him that things will get better. And then you pull out shit like this

>> Fruit here tastes good. Not half-brown and sour from garbage. No bugs on fruit. No bugs in whole room. Water is cold and clear. Not muddy or salty. <<

and all I can do is CRINGE, because holy fuck. Six very short sentences that make it *painfully* clear just how low Bruce-and-Hulk have gotten a time or two, where Hulk resorts to eating buggy, thrown-away fruit.

Excuse me while I steal Bruce-n-Hulk and tuck them up in soft blankies and ... yeah.

(no subject)

Date: 2014-05-23 09:48 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] yamx
*sighs* Hulk really has had a horrible, horrible life so far. ...and sometimes it's hard not to blame Bruce... As understandable as it is that he was scared, and as much as we know he has his own scars, holy shit...

I love how concerned JARVIS is about Hulk eating the fruit with possible bits of glass on it. At a guess, Hulk probably could eat those just fine, but it's so nice that JARVIS doesn't let him anyway. :) And Hulk does stop and do what JARVIS asks! :)

The ending was sad--touching Hulk is the one thing JARVIS can't do. :(

(no subject)

Date: 2014-05-23 12:40 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] siliconshaman
Just seconding what everyone else has said..

Ace-fan

Date: 2014-05-23 12:59 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
As always, I LOVE your Hulk. He is adorable. JARVIS is brilliant here; I'm interested in how he has so quickly come to the conclusion that Hulk is a person, when all the other Avengers don't pick up on that so much until "Splash". I guess he observes more.
Hulk's reaction when JARVIS asks whether he's ready to transform back to Bruce is so sad. "No-one wants Hulk." :'( I love that JARVIS instantly refutes Hulk's assumption and helps him think of things he might like to do before going back inside Bruce.
Hulk's happiness at finding fruit that isn't rotting or full of bugs is distressingly strong. Bruce-and-Hulk have been in some terrible situations. :-(
JARVIS seems a lot more emotional in this story. He's usually super-calm, but he got *angry* when Hulk mentioned being drugged in an earlier chapter, and when he warned about the glass on the apple he seemed positively flustered. A safety warning for Tony is generally a very cool, dry suggestion that that might be a bad idea. It's interesting how he interacts differently with Hulk.

Re: Ace-fan

Date: 2014-05-23 03:59 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] redsixwing
Your observation about JARVIS' tone is interesting. I wonder if he's adapting to how he expects the people he's talking with to react? Hulk might not take well to the cool, deferential tone JARVIS takes with Tony. I'd almost expect him to see it as distant, disinterested, or maybe even clinical - which we know is a big trigger for smash.

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Date: 2014-05-23 03:21 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] thnidu
Yeah...! All of what they said.

I can remember to comment sometimes!

Date: 2014-05-24 12:11 am (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
I'm really enjoying this! I check for updates all the time. There's something sad, but perfect about it. The "wash that" comment made me smile because JARVIS sounds likes a person.

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Date: 2014-05-24 05:30 pm (UTC)
From: (Anonymous)
Okay, can I talk for a minute about the awesomeness that is your version of JARVIS in this story, and more importantly this chapter?

The way he code-shifts from his regular vocab (which is usually excellent) to a more basic form because he's putting Hulk's understanding first is great. Especially because of the level of empathy necessary for that. A level of empathy that a lot of humans lack, so it's really incredible to see it in a being that is not only programmed but was raised by TONY STARK, who has a noticeable lack of empathy in some situations.

Then I thought about it a bit more. And realised I was doing Tony a disservice. Of COURSE JARVIS learned code shifting from Tony. Tony is constantly code shifting, he lets it slip a little during the battle on the helicarrier in the Avengers (maybe because he's talking to Cap, maybe because he had a conversation on the science level with Bruce and it was hard switching back, or maybe because, you know, there's a battle going on) but he notices Cap's confused (It seems to run on some kind of electricity) and corrects himself in a way that Cap can understand, glossing over Cap's lack of understanding with a quick quip. And when you think about the fact that Tony has been giving weapons and technology presentations to business men and army generals who would have little to no knowledge of science and technology (think of the beginning of Iron Man one, there were soldiers (both American and local) that he had to put the Jericho's concept across to and make friends with).

Also, how often must JARVIS have wished to have hands and the ability to go and sit with/hug people who are upset? I mean, a lot of time when dealing with Tony he seems long suffering and resigned to letting things happen. I mean, giving him control of the armour could mean that JARVIS could physically go in and hug/deal with/help Tony when he's drinking enough to kill his liver or injured or whatever. But then you have to consider the body dismorphia that would come from switching from having a whole tower as his body/under his control to a completely different form of existence.

And then I started thinking about it too much. About JARVIS's existence versus Dummy's and whether JARVIS would take on a physical form in the armour and come give hugs/help if necessary. If he has Tony's permission to do that and if he would feel comfortable doing that. If he's not coming to sit with Hulk in the armour because he would be uncomfortable or if he's not coming because he thinks that JARVIS in the armour would confuse/frighten Hulk.

And this is why I love your stories. They aren't just great stories for feeling good but they make you think and deal with key issues. So go you. :)

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