>> No wonder Bruce is dragging his feet, later in the storyline, about not wanting to repair his relationship with Hulk and not wanting to give up the bad tape. <<
Actually, from a personal standpoint... it's not at ALL "not wanting to give up the bad tape". Just beginning to heal enough to recognize how INSANE some of the internalized BS is from -one incident- in my childhood, there's also a very real tidal wave of ONE particular fear: if I let (this emotion, whatever it is) out for even a microsecond, the dam is going to burst and oh wow, it's NEVER going to stop. Just trying to GET to the 'bad tape' element is a huge problem.
Now add in every major trauma Bruce went through just from the incident where his father murdered his mother- he witnessed the attack, he lost one parent to death, the other last seen in an incomprehensible RAGE (Hulk-level rage, in fact), was taken to a hospital and subjected to a bewildering array of physical exams (none of which were likely to be explained to him given his physical age), lost his home and familiar possessions, lost any neighborhood friends or even familiar faces. Each SET of emotions can feel that overwhelming and impossible to cope with. That's all rolled into one twenty-four hour period, or less.
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Re: Phil is Awesome Again!
Date: 2014-04-25 09:32 pm (UTC)Actually, from a personal standpoint... it's not at ALL "not wanting to give up the bad tape". Just beginning to heal enough to recognize how INSANE some of the internalized BS is from -one incident- in my childhood, there's also a very real tidal wave of ONE particular fear: if I let (this emotion, whatever it is) out for even a microsecond, the dam is going to burst and oh wow, it's NEVER going to stop. Just trying to GET to the 'bad tape' element is a huge problem.
Now add in every major trauma Bruce went through just from the incident where his father murdered his mother- he witnessed the attack, he lost one parent to death, the other last seen in an incomprehensible RAGE (Hulk-level rage, in fact), was taken to a hospital and subjected to a bewildering array of physical exams (none of which were likely to be explained to him given his physical age), lost his home and familiar possessions, lost any neighborhood friends or even familiar faces. Each SET of emotions can feel that overwhelming and impossible to cope with. That's all rolled into one twenty-four hour period, or less.