>> Dude... the awkwardness of being both touch hungry and tactile-defensive <<
I have several characters like that. Turq and Lawrence especially. Shiv somewhat, although his is less skin-hunger for other people and more sensation-seeking from outside objects. If you haven't read it yet, check out "Wonderful in Its Own Way" about Stan and Lawrence kissing for the first time, where Stan is the one who overloads for a change.
>> as well as having the stance on acts of traditional "coupleness" that I do mean that I GET THIS "How do I date and express my affections without being weird and creepy?" AWKWARD...I GET THIS AWKWARD SO HARD <<
*hugs offered* Cross-cultural dating is challenging.
>> people have WEIRD expectations for other peoples sexuality even if you're STRAIGHT.. <<
So. Much. This.
>> like I've had peers come right out and ask about whether or not I've had a sexual encounter, attempt to get me to "confess being a lesbian" o_0 (WTF does that even MEAN?), <<
Well that's rude.
>> INSIST that I must have had sexual encounters loudly and publicly and then shame me <<
And that's outright harassment.
>> when there were no details forthcoming because 1. awkward 2. none of their business and 3. NO DETAILS TO GIVE...because I have not engaged in any coupling behaviors <<
Gee I wonder why if those are the people around you.
>> I don't understand people my age being so invested in other people's sex lives or orientations or like, swabbing each other's tonsils for microbes with their tongues in public hallways....I don't understand this drive to like HAVE THE SEX and TALK ABOUT THE SEX and gossip about others because THEY MIGHT DO THE SEX DIFFERNT THAN YOU DO! <<
Me neither. I did eventually find persons and activities of interest to me, but my tastes are still rather different than the usual. My sexuality is a tesseract, and most people do not grok quantum mechanics.
>> I just....don't want to participate? And that makes me a freak? Whatever. <<
No it does not. There is nothing wrong with not being interested in some activity. It just means the people around you are jerks.
>> so yeah, I can sort of see how if you add layers on to that "who am I and where do I fit and where am I comfortable" cake the situation and the feelings around it get even more COMPLICATED than they already were<<
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>> Dude...
the awkwardness of being both touch hungry and tactile-defensive <<
I have several characters like that. Turq and Lawrence especially. Shiv somewhat, although his is less skin-hunger for other people and more sensation-seeking from outside objects. If you haven't read it yet, check out "Wonderful in Its Own Way" about Stan and Lawrence kissing for the first time, where Stan is the one who overloads for a change.
>> as well as having the stance on acts of traditional "coupleness" that I do mean that I GET THIS "How do I date and express my affections without being weird and creepy?" AWKWARD...I GET THIS AWKWARD SO HARD <<
*hugs offered* Cross-cultural dating is challenging.
>> people have WEIRD expectations for other peoples sexuality even if you're STRAIGHT.. <<
So. Much. This.
>> like I've had peers come right out and ask about whether or not I've had a sexual encounter, attempt to get me to "confess being a lesbian" o_0 (WTF does that even MEAN?), <<
Well that's rude.
>> INSIST that I must have had sexual encounters loudly and publicly and then shame me <<
And that's outright harassment.
>> when there were no details forthcoming because 1. awkward 2. none of their business and 3. NO DETAILS TO GIVE...because I have not engaged in any coupling behaviors <<
Gee I wonder why if those are the people around you.
>> I don't understand people my age being so invested in other people's sex lives or orientations or like, swabbing each other's tonsils for microbes with their tongues in public hallways....I don't understand this drive to like HAVE THE SEX and TALK ABOUT THE SEX and gossip about others because THEY MIGHT DO THE SEX DIFFERNT THAN YOU DO! <<
Me neither. I did eventually find persons and activities of interest to me, but my tastes are still rather different than the usual. My sexuality is a tesseract, and most people do not grok quantum mechanics.
>> I just....don't want to participate? And that makes me a freak? Whatever. <<
No it does not. There is nothing wrong with not being interested in some activity. It just means the people around you are jerks.
>> so yeah, I can sort of see how if you add layers on to that "who am I and where do I fit and where am I comfortable" cake the situation and the feelings around it get even more COMPLICATED than they already were<<
That does make it hard.