This poem came out of the January 2016
crowdfunding Creative Jam. It was inspired by prompts from
dreamwriters,
shiori_makiba,
beasts_of_homeworld, and
dialecticdreamer. It also fills the "confused" square in
my 11-3-16 card for the Disaster Bingo fest, and the "relax" square in
my 8-1-15 card for the As You Like It fest. This poem has been sponsored by
beasts_of_homeworld. It belongs to the
Shiv thread of the
Polychrome Heroics series. It comes after the story "
Drawing It Out" by
dialecticdreamer.
WARNING: This poem contains some intense topics. It's also got a common trigger that can be serious, but people rarely think of this one in the context of trigger warnings: past reference to bad teachers. If that's an issue for you, definitely highlight the spoilery warnings.
The inside of Shiv's head is a mess, and this poem lays out more reasons why. He had some truly terrible art teachers, and other people who mistreated him for trying to express his emotions. Yes, what he feels is often scary, but that's typical of abused children, and punishing them for showing their damage just makes it massively worse. The poem also includes references to past child abuse, extremely negative self-talk and self-recrimination, fear of punishment, resignation, One True Wayism, bad tape, discussion about the meaning and purposes of art, hesitation, intense art therapy, intrusive thoughts and horrible emotions, minor mistakes, panic attacks, prolonged duress stress disorder, talking about feelings, educational suppression, past bullying, insecurity, past bad therapy, and other challenges. Current environment is supportive. Please consider your tastes and headspace before reading onward.
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