Therapy. Because assault stuff we didn't get to in Indiana.
My therapist is win. SHe...actually explains things. The workings behind *why* thoughts are the way they are. For us, mechanics help. A lot.
It's why we like your articles. "Oh hey, the wetware is messed up? Here's why, here's how to fix it. Oh, that's not working this time? Well then try this."
T: Oh you're thinking like this? QWell ges what, that's normal (Insert cycle here) Counter it with (insert skills.)
...
Or: "So you're doing this, what skills did you just use/are you using?"
...
Still, I'ma need starbucks after this trip. (And I'll have it thanks to a gift card.)
-moving. Finances. Overdrawn again. I'm really worried that that's going to affect my being able to leave this situation. I'm still working on loss mitagation, and I'm also afraid that I won't get everything in in time to save things.
I'm behind on both HOA and mortgage by larg amounts.
But....the expectations here are just...unrealistic. I can't.
And I get this 'Hell no' feeling when I think about going back to Indiana. Which I know why. But if They don't want me back there, than They need to find me the money (Which is in the 4 figures) to keep me here, because at this point I feel I may *have* to go back there so FHA things can work. And it has to be *gguaranteed*. As much as I love IM; most of their events are in Cleveland, and I have no real way of tetting there when they pop up at short notice.
I do appreciate Their trying, but something needs to happen if Indiana isn't an option in *Their* minds.
Ug.
(I'm managing to not completely break, but let me tell you, this is taking both good and not so good coping skills.)
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Date: 2020-01-15 02:25 pm (UTC)My therapist is win. SHe...actually explains things. The workings behind *why* thoughts are the way they are. For us, mechanics help. A lot.
It's why we like your articles. "Oh hey, the wetware is messed up? Here's why, here's how to fix it. Oh, that's not working this time? Well then try this."
T: Oh you're thinking like this? QWell ges what, that's normal (Insert cycle here) Counter it with (insert skills.)
...
Or: "So you're doing this, what skills did you just use/are you using?"
...
Still, I'ma need starbucks after this trip. (And I'll have it thanks to a gift card.)
-moving. Finances. Overdrawn again. I'm really worried that that's going to affect my being able to leave this situation. I'm still working on loss mitagation, and I'm also afraid that I won't get everything in in time to save things.
I'm behind on both HOA and mortgage by larg amounts.
But....the expectations here are just...unrealistic. I can't.
And I get this 'Hell no' feeling when I think about going back to Indiana. Which I know why. But if They don't want me back there, than They need to find me the money (Which is in the 4 figures) to keep me here, because at this point I feel I may *have* to go back there so FHA things can work. And it has to be *gguaranteed*. As much as I love IM; most of their events are in Cleveland, and I have no real way of tetting there when they pop up at short notice.
I do appreciate Their trying, but something needs to happen if Indiana isn't an option in *Their* minds.
Ug.
(I'm managing to not completely break, but let me tell you, this is taking both good and not so good coping skills.)