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This poem fills a square on my card for the [community profile] kink_bingo fest. This fest encourages people to push the limits of their comfort zone by creating erotica, pr0n, smut, and other sexy stuff in the many flavors of kinky, sensual, and otherwise exotic activities. I'm hoping to attract some new readers for my writing.

The following story belongs to Schrodinger's Heroes, featuring an apocryphal television show supported by an imaginary fandom. It's science fiction about quantum physics and saving the world from alternate dimensions. It features a very mixed cast in terms of ethnicity and sexual orientation. This project developed with input from multiple people, and it's open for everyone to play in. You can read more about the background, the characters, and a bunch of assorted content on the menu page.

Fandoms: Original (Schrodinger's Heroes)
Kink: Crossdressing
Medium: Poetry
Summary/Preview: In the thumbnail of the episode "Skin Deep" are references to Quinn presenting both as masculine and as feminine in different situations.  This is an inside look at how and why.
Content Notes: No standard notes apply.
Additional Information: NSFW. Canonical trans/genderqueer character (Quinn is genderqueer). Frottage. Oral sex. Waiting for marriage. Also worth noting is that Quinn's flavor of genderqueer can vary from one fanwork to another. Here Quinn has both a masculine and a feminine persona -- perhaps slightly OOC because of that binary, but this is alter!Quinn not core!Quinn.


Sometimes truth, like beauty,
only goes skin deep.
Quinn is full of questions without answers,
passion more complicated than flowers.

When Quinn goes out en homme,
he is a revolutionary.
He fights fiercely against oppression,
refusing to obey hateful men
just because they have dark skin.
He throws molotov cocktails and smuggles guns,
trains resistance fighters with his hard body and harder ways.

He has a girlfriend who brings out the worst in him.
She wants a bad boy, and Quinn can be bad for her.
He grinds against her, the bulge under his fly promising
but never keeping the promise, always hidden.
He hoists her up by her hips and pins her against the alley wall,
burying his face between her legs until she cries for pleasure.
Quinn's girlfriend does not know
that there is anything more to him than this.

This is who he is
with short red hair like fire,
clad in black leather that smells of cigarette smoke,
jingling with chains and rings of keys,
light glinting on knife hilts and gun butts.
There is a caveman in Quinn, and he wants out,
and sometimes Quinn dresses up and lets him out.

When Quinn goes out en femme,
she is a pacifist.
She argues in favor of blank rights, insisting
that nobody should be washed out of history
just because they have fair skin.
She throws rallies and fundraisers,
trains activists in nonviolent resistance and consensus.

She has a boyfriend who brings out the best in her.
He wants a good girl, and Quinn can be good for him.
She cuddles against him when they go to a movie,
her bosom soft against his chest, felt but never seen.
She holds hands with him, and kisses his thin lips,
whispering desires held by intent to wait for marriage.
Quinn's boyfriend does not know
that there is anything more to her than this.

This is who she is
with long blonde hair like sunlight,
clad in smooth pink cotton that smells of perfume,
jingling with bangle bracelets about both wrists,
light glinting on diamonds at throat and earlobes.
There is a modern woman in Quinn, and she wants out,
and sometimes Quinn dresses up and lets her out.

No one knows the whole truth, both truths,
not the revolutionaries or the activists or the authorities,
not girlfriend or boyfriend or other friends.
Quinn's body is a sculpture, a statement
that is never still and never silent.
Every garment has its own tale to tell,
its own urge to arouse and to gratify.
This is its own wisdom and its own secret.

Quinn is a man.
Quinn is a woman.
These two truths share one skin,
trading places as gracefully as they change clothes.

* * *


1) en homme -- as a man

2) en femme -- as a woman; used in crossdressing and transgender communities to indicate dressing and presenting a feminine persona.

3) In this context, "blank" is a racist term for a white person, equivalent to "n*gg*r."  The alter!America is one where Native American and African forces prevailed, and it didn't turn out any better. 

4) Consider that there different types of crossdressers. Most are men who, usually for brief periods, dress and act to express their anima or inner woman; or women expressing their inner man. This may be for erotic, professional, philosophical, entertainment, or other reasons. A few crossdressers are the flavor of genderqueer where they feel approximately equal between the two poles, and switch back and forth frequently based on mood or circumstance. Alter!Quinn is splitting time about evenly between the two.

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Date: 2012-10-19 05:57 am (UTC)
technoshaman: (kahuna)
From: [personal profile] technoshaman
Interesting alternate universe. I'm afraid, given what I remember growing up, you're right, it wouldn't have been any better with the tables turned... nevertheless, it would be interesting to explore this universe more. Who knows, I might learn something about myself... or be able to teach something.

Funny, I've been learning to read French of late (long story), so I was able to read "en homme/en femme" without thinking about it...

The local filker/cosplay types seem to have a thing for genderbending their favourite heroes... somewhere there's a pic of them as the cast of Firefly with every single gender flipped. It was a thing of beauty...

Re: Thoughts

Date: 2012-10-20 03:02 am (UTC)
thnidu: Tom Baker's Dr. Who, as an anthropomorphic hamster, in front of the Tardis. ©C.T.D'Alessio http://tinyurl.com/9q2gkko (Dr. Whomster)
From: [personal profile] thnidu
I picked it up by virtue of being linguistic SillyPutty. I know a lot of words in languages I don't actually speak. Ipso ditto.

I was wondering about the hair as I read this the first time. Unless there's something unexpected going on with respect to it, at least the female hair must be a wig, yes?

Re: Thoughts

Date: 2012-10-20 07:01 pm (UTC)
thnidu: my familiar. "Beanie Baby" -type dragon, red with white wings (Default)
From: [personal profile] thnidu
That's why I figured the long hair was a wig.

Ah, and it just hit me this morning: this --
  • it is not specified which (if either) persona matches the physical body
is why, or close to why, we have these:
  • He grinds against her, the bulge under his fly promising
    but never keeping the promise, always hidden.
  • She holds hands with him, and kisses his thin lips,
    whispering desires held by intent to wait for marriage.


Date: 2015-03-30 02:57 am (UTC)
dialecticdreamer: My work (Default)
From: [personal profile] dialecticdreamer
It doesn't matter whether Quinn is faking the top bulge or the bottom one; gender has got very little to do with thon's body.

Thon wants to express an /enormous/ range of genders, where other are happy with "only" or "mostly" one, and a few are happily so muddled and mixed that it takes a specific signal to pin down which they prefer. Some are so happily neutral that it's easy to drop any gender reference when thinking of them.

If I describe someone in jeans, polo shirt, tennis shoes and a fleece jacket, I could mean an infant all the way to a centenarian, of any gender. I need to qualify, add details, and find some signal to emphasize. Quinn just takes that costuming and description a little farther.

Re: Quinn

Date: 2015-03-30 12:49 pm (UTC)
dialecticdreamer: My work (Default)
From: [personal profile] dialecticdreamer
I apologize for the possible insult. I was thinking "faking" in terms of costuming, NOT body parts-- Like someone I know who still folds a nursing pad in half and slips it under one breast in her bra so they "look even" (when she's the only one who can even SEE a difference, frankly). Or, like correcting the drape of clothes just before the model hits the runway.


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